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5月11日 Second chancesyour wings were cut the last time,
now they've grown once more...
you know you'll try,n fall again,
but to rise one day,you run...
the air reassures you,
your wings are stronger than before,
so you let yourself go...
you know you can't experience,
the joy that you did in your first flight.
you'll face the same frustrations,
still you keep running with the same expectations...
you run,
hoping one day you'll fly high,
touch the stars ,if not the sky... 11月10日 untitledStill standing,near the woods...
where your eyes played with mine,
remebering those unspoken promises...
that shall forever remain divine.
Still making those marks,on the trees
counting the moments...
you are spending,
away from me.
Still waiting for you...
to catch the last tear off my eye,
waiting for you...
to say the final goodbye.
For i realised,
at the end of every chapter...
God blesses us all...
with a happily ever after.
8月20日 The last stage of loveMAY 2005 -I dont care,who you are,where you from,what you do,as long as you love me..shaurya - why should you even be talking to me?i flunked...you topped...you must be so ashamed of me..shania - listen,i know how much effort you put in,it isnt your fault... shaurya - i don't think you should be with me,anymore..shania - if you think its because of us,because of me...then its fine...shaurya - no,not you,i'm a loser...shania - oh please,did you ask your mom or dad or brother to leave you?shaurya - that's different,they don't have a choice... shania - no i don't,i love you,there is no other choice..shaurya - love you tooDec 2005 -on the top of the world,down on creation and only explanation i can find-is your love...shaurya - you know i talked to neha today..shania -oh,how is everything with her,how was she?shaurya -she's living in a hostel,now...and i talked to her room-mate too...she's really sweet...she's like you...shania - oh,since when have i become sweet?shaurya - oh,you...your so sweet,n i just love youshania - love you too FEB 2006 - there is no excuse my friend,for breaking my heart...shania - why are you talking to me like this...?your exams are near...i thougt i shouldn't disturb you... we talk for just 2 minutes,and i never complain... and now after such a long time we're talking-talking,and this fight... i don't think i can take this...we should break-up... shaurya - fine.shania - bye.shaurya - bye. click. shania is thinking about him.she's crying the whole day whether at home,college,bus....he didn't once say he wants to continue this... oh what did i do...probably its my mistake...i never give him a chance,i'm the one always taking decisions... a day later,she calls him shaurya -hello,shania... what happened?why dont you say anything? why are you crying? shania - is it really over?shaurya - yes it is... shania - but why,i don't want this to happen...why should this be over,after almost 2 years...i cant live without you...shaurya -i dnt think this can work out now...and you'l learn with time..shania - i never can,and never will...i love youshaurya -i love you too,but this is overAPRIL 2006-i walk a lonely road,on the boulevard of broken dreams shania - its been 2 months...we still talk everyday like we used to,but why do you keep on saying that we are over?tell me why?shaurya -i dont know,it cant work out...shania - but why? shaurya -dont know,let's talk about something else...shania - listen,as of now,my life isnt a cake-walk anyways...with all this pressure for entrance exams,my parents,friends...nobody is supportive enough...please you ofall people,don't create more problems for me,just tell me what the problem is...and dont say that u dont know... shaurya -achcha what if i were to say i've a girlfriend..?shania - oh don't joke with me..now you'l say its me,i'm really used to all your jokes please tell me why can't we be together?shaurya -shania,i have a girlfriend,neha's roommate... will you stop talking to me from now on? shania,why don't u say anything? shania - umm...ok.since when has this been going on?shaurya - i think feb 28...she proposed...shania - you mean 2 days,after we broke up...hmm...why didn't you tell me earlier? shaurya -i didn't want to lose you...will you stop talking to me now...?shania - i dont know.i think i should keep down the phone now. shaurya -ok.but would you stop talking to me now?shania - i dont know,you lied to me,i really can't think right now.bye.shaurya -love you.shania - love you too.bye.shania had seen the rosy side of love,now she'd to face the last stage of love too,death wherever you are,whatever you do,i'll be right here waiting for you.. 12月25日 devil or da deep blue sea...When it came towards u...u said no... U covered urself wid a veil... u said u wantd to protect urself frm da uncertain sorrow to cum...
u denied a yes that wudve changd its course... U denied a yes that wudve made u happy...
coz u made a choice... U were afraid of the cold n fever to follow... 5月30日 Say no to love(love=drugs)
we all need it and have some way or the other- thru our family,friends,may be a girlfriend or a boyfriend too... As for me...i'd nevr imagined how is it to be in luv... how is it to have a bf... i nevr wantd or not wantd a bf,i'd never felt the need...nevr had any opinions abt it... or thought in those terms... Bt then it just happened...one morning i woke up and i had a bf !!! then being in love was equivalent to being ecstatic...of course their were rough times...,bt the highs that i experienced were worth da lows... and then aftr 2 yrs being betrayed by the very same person,and parting from him...as u can imagine...was da exact opposite of being ecstatic... I take it as an experience and a warning for da future...Two years of being in a relationship made me experience such highs and lows that i cud nevr have imagined if i hadnt bin in love... of course u may feel free to call it a fling...an infatuation that lasted for 2 years...bt i want to call it love... it was addictive... and after seeing how da drug was causing harm to me...leaving da drug was da rite thing to do, bt it was difficult...plus we dont have rehabilitation centres for love...!!!(although me n my frnd r planning to take up da project,once v have da money and da resources to set up one...) and ppl dont even think its harmful...!there are so many campaigns "say no to drugs" bt for love there r none...y arnt their programmes for informing da teenagers how harmful and addictive it is to be in love...?? Despite all da temptations to use that drug once more,i did overcome my addiction for that particular drug..(as in that particular person)... bt wat abt other drugs who i know will give me da same high...?? should i say no to drugs...?? should i stop myself from falling in love again..?? my brain answers those questions in affirmative bt my heart has altoghetr a different take on all of this.. As of now,its just bin 2 months since i recovered... and although i kinda have developed liking for like dis other drug... bt i dont think i want to get addicted again...i cant manage da lows,wen im deprived of dis drug,and i'l even sacrifice da highs of using da drug... although i cant stop myself from feeling da way i feel...bt my brain can sure control me and resist all da temptations,reminding of da lows i'd to face earlier... bt then i ask myself...wat if dis drug is not da harmful kind...? wat if dis drug is kind of medicinal one...which wont harm me like the previous one...bt help me...?? bt i knw its just my heart and its way of justifiying itself...at this moment in my life im not even sure if i've fully recovered from da previous drug...and may be i cnt control liking or falling for da new drug... bt for me using it is STRICTLY BANNED!!! I am with my brain...who r u wid??? |
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